I just finished my PhD written exams yesterday, which may have been one of the more difficult things I’ve done in my life (I won’t know if I’ve passed until next week, and oral exams are on the 21st). There were points where I couldn’t remember simple words because my brain was so taxed (I couldn’t think of the word “reinforce” at one point, which is both hilarious and massively depressing) and where I had to talk myself into writing just another page or reading through just one more sentence. The thing is, though, that now that it’s finished, it feels amazing to know that I managed to complete the written part of the exam without quitting and managed to produce exam answers that I’m not completely embarrassed about. Although, again, I won’t have feedback on them until next week, so my opinions could easily change between now and then.
I know I’m not the first to make the analogy, but this process really brought home to me how going through the process of getting the doctorate is an endurance sport; the psychological aspects of the exam process are similar to those that get you through the marathon. There were points during both where I was too tired to keep going, where I knew I could quit, where I convinced myself that I couldn’t finish but didn’t stop. In both, you push through your fatigue, your pain, because you know that you’ve put the work in to finish and finish strong. I was talking to a colleague last week about how the preparation for the exam is like training for a marathon – the hours of intellectual and/or physical training, proper nutrition, good sleep, rest days. I also suspect that – were I not an endurance runner – I wouldn’t have had the psychological reserves to finish the written exam. The feeling at the end of each was similar: physical, emotional, and mental fatigue mixed with pride for having accomplished something challenging.
Today, I’m completely wiped out, but I also had this thought: I need to do an Ironman before I finish my dissertation.
I know, I know. It’s a crazy idea. But don’t throw me in an asylum just yet.
I’ve run three marathons, something like eight half marathons (I’d have to go dig through the medals and count them at this point), and completed a duathlon (run + bike + run). I have my fourth marathon in March, and I was planning to do a triathlon next summer. I want to continue to challenge myself physically in the same way the dissertation is going to challenge me intellectually. The Ironman is the next logical step.
The Ironman is one of the toughest endurance events in the world, and consists of a 2.4 mile swim, a 112 mile bike, and a 26.2 mile run. The only other events that tax their participants as much are the 100+ mile trail races out in the desert or in the mountains like Badwater and Western States.
I’ve always been intrigued by triathlons. My dad used to do them when he was my age,* and as a little kid, I always thought it was neat. I’d never been an athlete**, however, so doing anything on the scale of a triathlon was completely beyond me. After I finished my first marathon in 2011, I knew that I wanted to eventually get into triathlons and that, at some point, I’d shoot for the Ironman.
So what does this mean?
I have two and a half years before I finish my dissertation, if all goes to plan, so I have two and a half years to prepare for an Ironman. I’m thinking that the Summer before my last year of grad school will probably be the ideal time to do it, since I’ll be going on the nationwide job-market, which will consume a good deal of time and money as I’m trying to finish my diss. So race plan for the next few years might look like this (since I want to run a 50K at some point as well):
- Spring marathon – Virginia Creeper marathon (while writing/completing dissertation prospectus)
- Summer/fall half Ironman
- Fall/winter 50K – Possibly the Bigfoot 50K?
- Spring marathon – Possibly Buffalo?
- Summer/fall Ironman
- Winter 50K
- Spring marathon (while finishing/defending dissertation)
- Graduate (if all goes to plan!)
I’d also sprinkle some 5Ks and half marathons in there as well, but this is a schedule that might actually be doable, if I get myself in gear and stay focused. I’d be fine with pushing the Ironman to the following summer, but I’d worry about having to move for work and all the chaos that could result. Well. What’s grad school without a challenge?
*He actually used to do kayak triathlons, which replace the swim with a kayaking level, which, in my opinion is much more fun than swimming.
**which is a nice way of saying I was a lazy kid/teenager who would have rather cut off an arm than run a mile.